SHOPPING.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010 @ 9:18 PM
shopping with baby today, wasnt satisfying.but overall its alright.
was just fickle on what to buy.
i hurt him.
now i feel bad.
time to play JOJO FASHION RUNAWAYY~
WOOOOOOSH ~
BOOYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Saturday, December 25, 2010 @ 11:15 AM
IM SO SO SO HAPPY.EVERYTHING IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
PERFECT RIGHT NOW !!! :DDD
Swollen eyes.
Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 1:43 AM
I like staying up at this point of time, and reflecting on everythingand yes, cry.
It feels right.
Because there's no one to disturb you.
If only today can happen again.
His first look at me, and he smiled.
and I smiled widely.
We held hands, and pretended we were sulking.
I love him.
But I just dont make him happy.
Gosh, tears.
Maybe i should remove my tear ducts.
Why am I given such a tough road ?
Why is it so hard to be happy?
Because life was never easy.
Im not listening to any music,
because I'll cry harder.
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The book, Our book.
Where i wrote, every significant moment and photos in it.
I'll keep it.
I read it everyday, and I cry when I read it.
Because things arent what they are anymore.
No one is reading this blog, because I never told anyone except
Van & Shar. but theyre probably busy to read.
I miss you.
I remember he made me nutella bread today.
And treat me frappe.
I wanna cry, wait, im already am crying.
Haiz. someone save me.
Lets not look back, and move forward.
But he won't.
I want him to be happy so badly, that im willing to go missing,
so that he can find who he wants.
When I go missing, Id probably do stupid things.
Most important thing : Id be crying.
Wish you'd miss me, like how I miss you.
I dont want to wish.
Id rather make things happen.
But right now, Im out of my mind, and I don't know what to do.
My Name Is Nad.
@ 1:30 AM
Im smiling now.Im smiling, but Im crying.
Fuck, I just suck.
I feel like shit.
I feel so shattered.
What does anyone know about fixing a broken heart,
that has been broken since years ago?
Did anyone ever realise it was broken?
I couldnt ever mend it.
But i trust him to heal it.
But it broke again.
I want to stop crying.
But Im a cry baby.
Please hug me.
I remember how he kissed on my forehead,
and I kissed his too.
I miss it.
I remember how much we laugh today.
Now my tears are falling, like a rainfall.
No one knows the pain, because no one has ever check to see.
Im crying, and no one is holdin on to me.
Sometimes, i feel like abusing myself.
I shan't elaborate.
Sometimes, I feel like running away, well, most times.
Dont wanna do anything.
Please let me cry tonight.
I wanna cry again, like how i did two days ago til 4 in the morning.
Perhaps, today I'll cry til 5 in the morning.
Ouch, the broken pieces.
They're missing.
Please dont cry , baby.
I want to make you happy.
Thats all I ever wanted to do.
Make anyone Im with happy, but i Always fail.
Nadd, please stop crying.
Baby please don't break my heart slow. (t.swift)
Skinnier as the days go.
@ 1:22 AM
Once I lose my appetite, I can never get it back.Crying.
Why. Is. It. So. Hard to be happy?
I remember how he lied on my lap today, brushing his hair and hugging him.
I remember how warm he felt in my arms and how his words always seemed right.
I remember how my tears became, tears of happiness and my smile was so true for him.
Now I remember how many times Ive hurt him and nothing feels alright anymore.
I feel like giving up. because time and time again I mess things up.
Im not worth it.
Crying.
He'll tell me to stop crying, and say why am I crying when it isnt wrong for me to do whatever it is.
Honestly, he judges me.
He's saying my ex sent me home.
But everyone knows no guy ever sent me home.
I cant make him happy.
Lets just give up. :')
NO MORE MISERY !
Thursday, December 23, 2010 @ 10:33 PM
hehe, im sucha happy kid.i met him today *dead flowers starts to bloom*
goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, today is soooo wonderful.
except the fact my phone is not in service, continue ltr ! :B
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010 @ 9:55 PM
No Answer.
@ 9:42 PM
He didnt pick up my phone call.9 times.
but to no avail.
haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
i dont even know what im gnna do if he picks up the call .:/
whats wrong with me?
depressed?
only eat two pieces of bread with egg today.
and one red bean bun.
i dont feel like eating.
Words written Especially for you.
@ 9:19 PM
i dont know what to do.I called him, he picked up.
But i couldnt say the words.
Say how much I miss him,
and how much i really want him.
i became mute. and it really hurts
that he cant hear the words he needed to hear.
hais.
I dont know why.
@ 8:57 PM
Suddenly, I cant express my emotions.I feel messed up, thats for sure.
And empty.
Just called him.
But he didnt pick up.
I couldnt reach him.
I dont know why his friend is so influentual to me.
Ive never thought of leaving him.
Never, not once in my life.
He always bring happiness to my life.
And everything.
But what she said, really burns me and cut me to pieces.
Im empty.
Labels: Broken.
Latest Update.
@ 8:17 PM
Just opened a new blog, totally dedicated for him.But not like he'll ever read it.
Im gonna edit it now. :/