My eyes hurt.
Monday, January 31, 2011 @ 1:20 AM
he ended the call.and now im crying again.
Ya Allah, bantu lah aku melalui segala dugaan yang Kau berikan padaku..
empty.
@ 1:07 AM
this broken heart.i am actually typing with a broken heart.
i cant even breathe anymore.
it is so hard. why is it so painful.
i need a hug.
i cant stand this anymore.
i need someone to carry me in their arms to hold my heart.
this is so painful, my tears just wont stop falling. i dont know how it will.
i am crying and crying and i just dont know how to stop.
i forgot how to breath.
someone help me please.
why doesnt he care about the tears that are falling?
the pain that i am feeling?
why doesnt anyone cares?
why must i cry alone? until i keep sobbing.
i dont know ..
why is it so painful..
i never wanted to be in love.. not with you..
and now when i do, my heart falls into pieces.
what do you do when youre hurt so badly and nth can help .
@ 12:30 AM
nothin.gEverything hurts.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 @ 10:05 PM
Im tired of going through all this.I don't know what to do anymore.
Every night I cry and long for you.
But no avail.
Im okay.
If you are.
SHOPPING.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010 @ 9:18 PM
shopping with baby today, wasnt satisfying.but overall its alright.
was just fickle on what to buy.
i hurt him.
now i feel bad.
time to play JOJO FASHION RUNAWAYY~
WOOOOOOSH ~
BOOYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Saturday, December 25, 2010 @ 11:15 AM
IM SO SO SO HAPPY.EVERYTHING IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
PERFECT RIGHT NOW !!! :DDD
Swollen eyes.
Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 1:43 AM
I like staying up at this point of time, and reflecting on everythingand yes, cry.
It feels right.
Because there's no one to disturb you.
If only today can happen again.
His first look at me, and he smiled.
and I smiled widely.
We held hands, and pretended we were sulking.
I love him.
But I just dont make him happy.
Gosh, tears.
Maybe i should remove my tear ducts.
Why am I given such a tough road ?
Why is it so hard to be happy?
Because life was never easy.
Im not listening to any music,
because I'll cry harder.
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The book, Our book.
Where i wrote, every significant moment and photos in it.
I'll keep it.
I read it everyday, and I cry when I read it.
Because things arent what they are anymore.
No one is reading this blog, because I never told anyone except
Van & Shar. but theyre probably busy to read.
I miss you.
I remember he made me nutella bread today.
And treat me frappe.
I wanna cry, wait, im already am crying.
Haiz. someone save me.
Lets not look back, and move forward.
But he won't.
I want him to be happy so badly, that im willing to go missing,
so that he can find who he wants.
When I go missing, Id probably do stupid things.
Most important thing : Id be crying.
Wish you'd miss me, like how I miss you.
I dont want to wish.
Id rather make things happen.
But right now, Im out of my mind, and I don't know what to do.