Skinnier as the days go.
Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 1:22 AM
Once I lose my appetite, I can never get it back.Crying.
Why. Is. It. So. Hard to be happy?
I remember how he lied on my lap today, brushing his hair and hugging him.
I remember how warm he felt in my arms and how his words always seemed right.
I remember how my tears became, tears of happiness and my smile was so true for him.
Now I remember how many times Ive hurt him and nothing feels alright anymore.
I feel like giving up. because time and time again I mess things up.
Im not worth it.
Crying.
He'll tell me to stop crying, and say why am I crying when it isnt wrong for me to do whatever it is.
Honestly, he judges me.
He's saying my ex sent me home.
But everyone knows no guy ever sent me home.
I cant make him happy.
Lets just give up. :')