Swollen eyes.
Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 1:43 AM
I like staying up at this point of time, and reflecting on everythingand yes, cry.
It feels right.
Because there's no one to disturb you.
If only today can happen again.
His first look at me, and he smiled.
and I smiled widely.
We held hands, and pretended we were sulking.
I love him.
But I just dont make him happy.
Gosh, tears.
Maybe i should remove my tear ducts.
Why am I given such a tough road ?
Why is it so hard to be happy?
Because life was never easy.
Im not listening to any music,
because I'll cry harder.
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The book, Our book.
Where i wrote, every significant moment and photos in it.
I'll keep it.
I read it everyday, and I cry when I read it.
Because things arent what they are anymore.
No one is reading this blog, because I never told anyone except
Van & Shar. but theyre probably busy to read.
I miss you.
I remember he made me nutella bread today.
And treat me frappe.
I wanna cry, wait, im already am crying.
Haiz. someone save me.
Lets not look back, and move forward.
But he won't.
I want him to be happy so badly, that im willing to go missing,
so that he can find who he wants.
When I go missing, Id probably do stupid things.
Most important thing : Id be crying.
Wish you'd miss me, like how I miss you.
I dont want to wish.
Id rather make things happen.
But right now, Im out of my mind, and I don't know what to do.